*Syllables that echo from my Journal’s Bosom* (4/4): Rest in Peace- Baby Rukmini
Baby Girl,
How ya doin’?
Hope you’re sleeping peacefully.
Wanna see something I wrote for you long back?
Phew! Took a while for me to post this, woman!
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“08.01.2023
Dear Rukku,
September 2021, I still remember when I was ‘shit scared’ as your sister Momo came near me at the cafe.
God! I have been scared of animals, insects, and everything that barks, moves, or flies, all my life.
The first time I heard of you was even before I saw you.
You were supposedly this ‘fierce’ dog, who fell in love at first sight with your dad. Also, the one who’d bitten ‘30+’ many :P
Honestly, you sounded nothing more than a threat alarm!
But my baby, when I met you, it was love at first sight for me :)
Beyond the tertiary ferocity, with innocence in your eyes… To me, you felt like an alpha with a pure heart, radiating loyalty to the core…
Like my own self, I knew you would be eternally thankful, faithful, and benevolent to the one who rescues you.
I am glad your dad is somewhat playing that role in both of our lives :)
I was ‘scared to death’ while you were around. I am not even making this up, everybody was a witness.
It’s funny how I used to call your dad to take you inside before I’d even enter the gates.
But, you know, in my heart I always loved you. I just waited for the right time for its expression.
It’s cute, yet stupid, how petting you became one of the major projects up my ‘hobby bucket list’ :P
Haha.
I could honestly never ever, <quote/ unquote>…” NEVER EVER” imagine ME taking YOU out on a Solo Walk.
My heart used to thump out of my chest even while third wheeling your evenings with your dad :p
Every time I gathered the courage to pet you, you just pushed me back, with greater intensity.
So, I decided to take one step at a time and did not lose hope ☺
And look, how those steps brought me so close to you My Child ❤
I took you out for a walk ALL BY MYSELF today!
Damn! What a euphoria, Rukku! You made me restore faith in shiddat & kayanat and all that Platonic shit. LOL.
You know you’ve taught me how to love unconditionally. No matter what we’ve been through the last time, you show the same excitement every time we met again :)
You taught me how true love has no language, and needs no language.
I mean, so what if you can’t READ read what Mama’s writin’ for you here?
I am sure it is reaching you already, in some parallel universe.
More than in love, you made me restore my faith in myself, Rukku :)
You & Momo are my first-ever pets.
Only MY FAMILY & I know how BIG A DEAL this is :D
You showed me how I am capable of overcoming my fears, taking one step at a time, with a pure heart full of love.
Today, as I look back at the day I first saw you, I realize how far I’ve come in life too. Alongside my parallel journey with you, I have aced in many arenas of life, where I had forgotten to celebrate my advancement.
Thanks, you being a medium, I could cherish that.
And, thank you for reciprocating my love Rukmini ❤
I Love You :)
I wish I could read this to you and make you understand my love saga :(
I am sure you would have understood. I am sure you will :)
Love,
Mommy J.”
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❤❤
Sorry, I could never make you sit and read this.
Ah…
EVERY DAY, I gather all my strength to take a sneak peek into where we lay you.
You know, so many times I just talk random shit to you sitting there.
I know you hear me…
Damn! Are you really gone?
Naah…
Okay… Still making peace…<and rolling my eyes at ya>
Anyway,
Your sister is doing fine since you ask.
In fact, she’s sitting right next to my bed as I am typing this :)
I am gonna pamper her with a lot many scooter rides, don’t worry!
She does miss playing with you at night though :(
And the walks! Of course the walks!
We are always ‘extra protective’ of her now.
(You know what I am talking about :P LOL.)
Your dad is doing fine too.
You know he’s good at ‘playing strong’ :P
But, don’t you worry child. I am gonna take good care of him :)
Yes, the 11’s, 5’s, and 9’s are tough for us. Very tough.
And, there is a heart-sinking silence at night, when we walk down the stairs and drop down the shutter.
Damn…We miss you, a lot actually :(
All three of us.
I wish I had spent more time with you, baby girl. More walks, more treats. Oh, more pictures, actually ☹
But it’s okay. Some other time. Somewhere. I am sure :)
Wow, I had no idea I got motherly instincts and shit baby.
Jeez!
I think that’s why holding you being so sick during your last days was the toughest. Mama’d never seen you so weak…
But Mama’s gonna only remember your wolf version ❤
The alpha that you were (Are)…
Nobody could take you for granted, My Child.
You were a God damn freakin’ wolf!
Mama’s gonna hold her guards really strong as well, as promised to you long back. She ain’t takin’ no shit from anyone no more :D
Ah…
Only sending you love ❤ No more tears.
Thanks for teaching me so many things, without saying a word in my language.
Mama keeps lighting lamps in your memory.
I am sure their light reaches you. And yours shines on me 😊
Love you Sher Bachhe ❤
I am sure heaven’s thundering now with your loud roars :)
See ya up there in some years!
**To Rukku Baby: Beyond Infinity to Eternity ❤**
